Finding Home 

“Are you going home for the holidays?” 

This is a question that I hear many times.  It’s a friendly inquiry but it has taken me years to answer honestly.  I did used to go “home” to CA for the holidays.  When I was married, we would drive “home” to IL for the holidays.  However, with those experiences tended to be lacking the true joy that I expected to feel in celebrating Christmas with family. 

Don’t get me wrong. Christmas is one of my favorite seasons of the year.  People seem nicer and I enjoy seeing more smiling faces when shopping or when holding the door open for someone.  I enjoy the Christmas spirit of giving and sharing.  Every weekend between Thanksgiving and Christmas is planned with writing Christmas cards, putting up a tree, shopping/shipping presents, making/delivering cookies and attending holiday events.  By the time Christmas Eve arrived, I would have traveled somewhere called “home” to celebrate.  But….”home” did not feel like Christmas to me.  

One year, I stayed in VA for Christmas because one of my dogs was undergoing cancer treatment.  I was alone with two dogs, but I felt the true love and spirit of Christ’s birth.  There were no criticisms, no complaints, and no disappointments.  There was only the peaceful presence of being in company with one another and being grateful to enjoy God’s gift to us.  

Yes, my journey to find “home” for the holidays has taken a while, but I am thankful and glad to be “home” with Jackson for the holidays! 

Prayer Dear Lord, thank you for opening our minds and hearts to the true spirit of Christmas.  May we continue to share Your joy, love and blessings with all of Your children

–Metta Tanikawa 

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Advent23: December 24

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Advent23: December 23

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Advent23: December 21

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Advent23: December 20

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Advent23: December 22

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Advent23: December 19

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Advent23: December 18

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Advent23: December 17

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Advent23: December 16

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Advent23: December 15

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Advent23: December 13

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Advent23: December 12

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Advent23: December 11

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Advent23: December 10

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Advent23: December 9

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Advent23: December 8

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Advent23: December 7

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Advent23: December 6

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Advent23: December 5

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Advent23: December 4

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Advent23: December 3

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